I honestly never imagined myself in this current role, yet it is the most natural thing I have ever done in my life. I am who I am. I love the choice Carl and I have made, together, to have me be at home with Ellis and take care of him. Our whole life has changed – and I am not talking about the obvious (a baby getting ready to run around…). But our careers and our bank accounts. It’s a good thing #SirEllisRoy takes up the majority of our time, so we cannot really think about spending money, but even if we were thinking about it, it is not there to spend. We keep bringing our focus back to the intention we set, together, when Ellis was born. We wanted to be as present, or at least one of us being as present, as possible for the first two years of his life. We are not the “let’s make a budget” type people, so while we knew it would affect us, we could not be bothered to calculate it down to the penny – and sometimes I am thankful that we didn’t. It is HARD to be a one income family. I mean, it is what it is and you do what you have to do, but – it’s still hard sometimes.
There are times I feel that I can barely lift my head above the ocean which I is my family. By choice mostly – I love my family. But, when I do – and I find myself sucked into a breastfeeding controversy or someone else’s Facebook page has been taken down because they posted a breastfeeding picture or people are all in an up rage about someone breastfeeding in public or someone asks me if they really breastfeed small children in the LLL meetings I attend I really, really, really want to punch that person in the face. I don’t know what this has to do with what I wrote above – but I think that I am trying so hard to do the best thing I can for my family and my son in every single possible way – and when people get their panties in a bunch about the choices I make – or that another woman makes when that is exactly what she is going (the best thing for HER family), I just feel that people really need to do some serious soul searching. Like, serious soul searching.
There are plenty of blogs and articles and photos that will be shared this week that will talk about all of the benefits of breastfeeding and how amazing it is for your child and the bond between mother and child. It’s all true. But more than that – and that is all beautiful – it is about making sure that a woman feels empowered to do what is best for her children, and can do it freely. She should not feel scared, or shamed or guilty.
Three cheers to boobies!